21 Oct Lord, I am So Mad at You
Lord, I am mad at you. I don’t understand. Why does life have to be difficult? Why do the trials continue? Why haven’t we received the answer to our prayers? Why are we still waiting?
Everything is in place for us. We are ready. We have a house with room for babies. We don’t have any debt. We both have jobs. We are both healthy. Our faith is in you. We believe. So, what are you waiting for? What is taking so long?
Lord, I am so mad at you.
I am so mad, until I realize how blessed I truly am. Until I realize how good you are. Until I realize that your timing is better than ours. Until I realize that your ways are higher than ours. Until I realize that you are faithful and you fufill every promise ever spoken. Until I realize that you never delay. Until I realize the only person I can be mad at is satan. Until I realize that God, you are so so so so good.
It’s so easy for me to grow bitter, to grow angry, to grow frustrated, and to become mad. But, the only reason the anger happens is because I start viewing God through my circumstances. When I snap out of it and start viewing my circumstances through God then life doesn’t seem that bad after all. Actually, I realize life really is so so so great.
Are you mad at God? If so, I hope you realize He is on your side. I hope you realize how blessed you are, how loved you are, and I hope you know that while it’s absolutely okay to be mad at God (because He knows your thoughts anyway), staying mad isn’t going to get you anywhere. The choice is yours. You can choose to be a bitter, angry person or you can choose to make the most of your circumstances.
Wherever you are today, I hope you allow yourself to process your feelings. I hope you know it’s okay to grieve and it’s okay to be mad. But, I hope that you make an effort to move forward and seek life, freedom, peace, joy, and all the blessings that the Lord has for you when you follow and trust Him. Instead of letting anger dwell inside you, seek the Lord and trust that He has good plans for you. I can tell you from personal experience, walking in joy and peace with God is a lot better place to be than being angry or mad at Him.
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Kelly @ Southern Komfort Blog
Posted at 07:28h, 21 OctoberI love that you are so open and honest with your feelings! It seriously can be so hard sometimes, and so easy to get mad and place blame on God. Praying for ya’ll girl, as you go through this season of life. xoxo
amanda
Posted at 08:04h, 21 OctoberThis is such a beautiful post and something we all need to remember. Thank you for sharing!
ThadandAmie 2011 (@thadandamie)
Posted at 08:20h, 21 OctoberSo true! If we feel mad at God he already knows our thoughts and it happens through out life. But like you said, if we just take a step back we will realize how blessed we already are 🙂 OX (http://isittimeforourfamily.blogspot.com/)
Jen
Posted at 08:29h, 21 OctoberI think I we have all been at that point in life.
Annette
Posted at 08:40h, 21 OctoberGod wants all of us…the love, hurt, anger, snarkiness, silliness…the whole kit and kaboodle! Excellent illustration of your willingness to give everything that God has given to you back to God! What a gift you are to people who need this Caroline!
Lily Ayala (Beauty With Lily)
Posted at 09:37h, 21 OctoberI really needed this, this morning. Everything was fine, until I read an article about a couple beating their 9 week old baby to death…and quickly came the anger, the questioning God. But you are SO incredibly right! Thank you for sharing!
Kelli {A Deeper Joy}
Posted at 09:53h, 21 OctoberThis is one of my favorite posts by you, Caroline! So so so true. I like where you said, “But, the only reason the anger happens is because I start viewing God through my circumstances.” Very true!
Rebecca Jo
Posted at 10:36h, 21 OctoberI’ve always heard that God isn’t surprised by our anger or frustration with Him… & even better – He can handle it – it doesn’t deter Him one bit from loving us.
Jessi Wallace
Posted at 11:34h, 21 OctoberThis is perfectly written and tugs at my heart strings. I am praying for you, Caroline!
Cali Girl
Posted at 11:58h, 21 OctoberThanks for the post! I struggling just a bit this morn as once again no baby this month ? But I too believe Jer 29:11 with all my ❤️…
Blessings to u in ur wait!!! And if u haven’t ever looked thru the blog- Samuel may- 31 days of waiting well… Google it! It’s helped me many times!
cuteheads
Posted at 12:00h, 21 OctoberI just love your writing and your passion. Beautifully said.
mandipimental
Posted at 14:25h, 21 OctoberBeautifully written, as always my friend. So good <3 And so true. I feel this way too. Some days I get so impatient and sad and mad. Sometimes the "Why me" or the "Why Not Me's?" creep in. But then I surrender. And I thank Him and Praise Him and He comforts me in that moment. And even if I need to ask Him to comfort me over and over again, moment by moment, I know He will be there.
thejessalynn
Posted at 15:18h, 21 OctoberI have been like this for a while. I needed to pray and really meditate on His Word. Thank you so much for this.
Jennifer Preiss
Posted at 16:47h, 21 OctoberThank you for the beautiful post. Keep positive!
Beth Dreyer
Posted at 17:33h, 21 OctoberSuch a good word!
Jaclyn
Posted at 18:30h, 21 OctoberMy thoughts completely – especially after the week I’ve had. God has His best for us and yes, I’m slowly learning that time fits that category!! ?
Elaina
Posted at 19:26h, 21 OctoberAmen and Amen. I was crying this very thing just the other night. Thank you for always sharing so openly. Continually praying for you and Colby and believing for your sweet little miracle.
taberartstudio
Posted at 00:32h, 22 OctoberI am your sister in Christ. There just isn’t an easy answer for infertility. Thank you for sharing, as I googled “In Due Time” . I was certain I was going to find a book, and found you instead.
elleseesyou
Posted at 04:48h, 22 Octoberalways praying for you. thank you for being so honest, sweet girl. and thank you again for making my birthday brighter.
Teri
Posted at 10:05h, 22 OctoberIt’s so easy for us to question God, but knowing that God is always in control and knows what is best for me (because He created me), helps me not to. Thanks for sharing this!
tots2travel
Posted at 12:37h, 22 OctoberI hope your prayers are answered soon. Best wishes.
lifeofaministermom
Posted at 12:51h, 22 OctoberSo good Caroline. Viewing our circumstances through God…I needed that! Amen!
Coupon Diva (@RealCouponDiva)
Posted at 13:00h, 22 Octoberit’s trusting God – who will see us through EVERY situation 😀
Denise
Posted at 16:09h, 22 OctoberSo beautiful! Thank you for being so vulnerable!
Mikki Jo
Posted at 17:37h, 22 OctoberYes I have been angry at God before too! His timing is always perfect, I remind myself often of this.
Sheryl@CherishedMag
Posted at 19:14h, 22 OctoberA few months ago I said something similar to a friend of mine. I’m mad at God and He knows anyway. Totally agree the key is not to stay mad and remember how wonderful He is.
Charlotte
Posted at 20:39h, 22 OctoberOoof. I get this. I really really do. And as someone who struggles myself with fears of infertility (since my bf and I have tried unsuccessfully for some time, too), I know it’s hard to accept and process these emotions without anger. But you’re right. Underneath it all, there is some plan or SOME reason for all of this–even if we don’t know what that is yet.
XOXO
Brianna George
Posted at 21:31h, 22 OctoberAhhh. Yes. Been there…many times…yet he is still faithful. May you continue to experience Christ even when angry. 🙂 ((hugs))
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Jennifer | The Deliberate Mom
Posted at 21:38h, 22 OctoberOh this is beautiful, and so very, very true:
“The only reason the anger happens is because I start viewing God through my circumstances. When I snap out of it and start viewing my circumstances through God then life doesn’t seem that bad after all.”
Those words gave me chills. I need to wear my God’s eyeglasses rather than my own.
Bless you and thank you for sharing (and for linking up to the #SHINEbloghop).
Wishing you a lovely weekend.
xoxo
chocolate Mama Loves Vanilla
Posted at 22:18h, 22 OctoberI love the header of this post! It completely draws you in to read more, and when I did, I was pleasantly surprised with your take on this feeling that many face. I am so very happy of your blessing and that you shared this post for others in hope of giving more acknowledgment to their many blessings. Very Humbling!
ellespann
Posted at 05:49h, 23 Octoberpraying for you – can relate on different topics. Honestly the part when we realize how good he is, is so humbling and awesome, though it obviously doesn’t make the issue go away. xoxo
elle | southernellestyle.com
melanieblignaut
Posted at 07:06h, 23 OctoberI think that in expressing our feelings to God, He helps us work through them and see His love and grace, whereas if we bottle everything inside then we only feel worse.
Branson
Posted at 07:22h, 23 OctoberThank you for sharing your heart! I have had moments of anger as well, but it is so important to remember that His timing is way better than ours… even when it is so, so hard to do!!
Cheryl Smith
Posted at 07:40h, 23 OctoberThank you for your transparency and for expressing your heart here. 🙂 I often think of our dear Lord when He was on the cross and how HE asked His Father why. God knows our frame, and He remembers that we are dust, and He absolutely understands every emotion we will ever feel since He experienced humanity firsthand. I don’t understand His delays, either, and sometimes it is just SO hard to wait upon His perfect timing. The other day I was seeking Him earnestly, and He spoke, “Just because I allow delays does not mean I have changed My mind.” Whew! That just REALLY helped me through that moment of questioning and uncertainty. I think that is where we become discouraged is when satan convinces us that God has changed His mind, and our promise will not be fulfilled after all. He absolutely WILL keep His promises to us, and we can count on that more than anything in this life. Sending you much love, many hugs, and a reminder that you are often in my prayers! Believing with you for your miracle!!!!! Just because God hasn’t, doesn’t mean He won’t.
helloredds
Posted at 09:38h, 23 OctoberAren’t you glad that we can tell God how we really feel! He already knows, but I’m so grateful that we can pour out our hurt and anguish to Him with complete freedom!
I love this line, ” staying mad isn’t going to get you anywhere.”
Thanks for an honest post!
Don’t know what you are dealing with right now, but I am praying for you today – to be comforted, encouraged, and uplifted!
Came over on Grace and Truth.
Hope you have a blessed day~
Melanie
Crystal
Posted at 10:47h, 23 OctoberI wish my sister had your blog years ago when she was going through this. She has FOUR now!
LOVE LIFE MINISTRIES
Posted at 13:33h, 23 OctoberThank you for sharing your heart with us!
Jeanine
Posted at 14:30h, 23 OctoberI love that we can be angry with God but it doesn’t change His love for us in the least!
Sarah J
Posted at 16:34h, 23 OctoberThis post is so real, raw, and I’ve been there more than once. I love how you express the shift in your perspective… it’s a lesson I need to learn!
Inspiration Indulgence
Posted at 09:49h, 26 OctoberI’ve definitely been there. A few weeks ago a guy I went to high school with tragically passed away suddenly in a drowning incident. 23 years old. God, why would you do that to his poor family? It’s hard sometimes.
Ally | The Speckled Goat
Posted at 09:58h, 26 OctoberI think this is one of those ways that infertility has changed me for the better. My relationship with God once seemed so…. shallow. Like I had to put on a happy face to pray, if that makes sense. But infertility has gotten me to a place where I’m really real with God- being angry, being so upset, yelling at Him at times that I just DON’T GET IT!!! 😉
It’s those times that I find myself closer to Him, needing Him, being real, and actually letting Him in.
Autumn @ Stay gold Autumn
Posted at 11:15h, 26 OctoberI’ve definitely had my moments where I feel more like Jonah than I do anyone with a super obedient story in the Bible. It makes me grateful they included stories like Jonah in Bible for when I have moments like that. Great post!
Rae
Posted at 21:30h, 26 OctoberSometimes it is so hard to remember that we have so much… and it’s hard to remember that we can ask Him why the crap seems to pile up in our lives. I am assuming He has reasons and answers that are not yet for me to know.
A thought-provoking post. <3
Angie@chasingmyhalo
Posted at 23:46h, 26 OctoberAgreed! It’s so easy to take our eyes off all we do have! And the fact that you don’t have any debt and a house is HUGE! What I wouldn’t give :-). Great post!
Happily Ever After Etc.
Posted at 01:54h, 28 OctoberIt’s so hard sometimes to not have all the control. Let what happens, happen. God knows which path is the right one. Thanks so much for sharing on Welcome Home Wednesdays! Can’t wait to see what you link up with us this week… don’t forget the party goes live tomorrow (Wednesday) morning at 7am CST!
servisashley
Posted at 21:50h, 03 NovemberI sometimes ask the same questions. I realize I need to learn patience and I actually asked for my church to pray for me to learn patience. God has a plan and he is going to do the right thing for you!