“How Long, O Lord, How Long?”
This has been my cry lately. How many times is the Lord going to tell us, “not yet”? I never consider a new cycle a “no”, but instead I consider it His way of saying “not yet”. However, the last few months it seems as though the “not yets” are just as hard. Even though I know the door hasn’t closed to pregnancy, often times the pain from waiting and seeing no changes makes it feel as the door has been slammed shut. The wait seems to get harder and harder, especially as more time passes, and when I take a step back and realize we have come to a time frame of waiting I never thought we would have to face – 3.5 years – it seems even harder to swallow.
3.5 years of waiting on Him. 3.5 years of trusting Him. Yet, no changes. No breakthrough. No pregnancy. Just waiting and more waiting. 1,280 Days of waiting. 42 months of him telling us “not yet”. How long is this wait going to last? How many more months? How many more years?
I’m reminded of Sarah and Abraham’s wait. 25 years. That is 300 months of waiting. I ask myself if I would be okay with that? “Lord, do I trust you and love you enough to wait 258 more months, if necessary?” That is a hard question, but the answer, no matter how hard it is, has to be yes. Because, the only other choice is giving up and to me, that isn’t a choice. Which leaves me to wait. I don’t know how much longer our wait will be. I don’t know if it will be one more month or 258 more months, but I do know that I will wait as long as I have to.
As time passes I know God isn’t denying our request. As much as it feels like the door has been slammed shut we have no reason to stop believing that He will bring us our miracle. In fact, as we wait our faith continues to increase with expectancy of breakthrough. It also forces us to seek His strength and peace as we trust that He will carry us through.
Just because you haven’t received your promise from the Lord yet, don’t believe the lie that you never will. Join me in persevering through. His timetable might look much different than yours, just as it has for me, but He will not delay His answer! Trust Him while you wait for Him to turn His “not yet” into His “yes”!
Has the Lord said “Not Yet” to what you are waiting for? What motivates you to continue to trust Him even when it gets hard?