Out of the Pit

Lately, I haven’t been the most fun or pleasant person to be around. I feel like I’m in a pit of darkness, yet I know I don’t want to stay there and I want to get out of the pit.

It all started when my world got flipped upside down when my sweet, sweet, sweet Kai monkey passed away. In addition, as each month goes on, I’m reminded that I am still not pregnant. And then my co-worker lost her future son-in-law. My heart continued to break.

Darkness seemed to surround me everywhere. But, I knew I didn’t want to stay in the middle of it.

After listening to this sermon, I knew I couldn’t stay focused on the darkness. Yes, I am grieving. Yes, it is healthy to grieve. But, it’s not healthy to focus on the evil of this world. When my co-worker received the call from her daughter, immediately John 16:33 popped into my head, “These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” I don’t want to focus on the tribulation, I want to have courage and focus on the fact that Jesus has overcome all tribulation.

The reality is that the suffering isn’t over. It will continue until Jesus comes back or I’ve gone to be with Him. Until then, I know I have two options: run away from Him and seek darkness or turn to Him and seek light. Option 1 will land me in a bigger pit of darkness so I am choosing option 2.

I usually turn my bible to the Psalms when feeling overcome. Psalm 150 is the closing hymn in the book of Psalms. It’s a hymn of praise.

Psalm 150 – The Message
Praise God in his holy house of worship,
    praise him under the open skies;
Praise him for his acts of power,
    praise him for his magnificent greatness;
Praise with a blast on the trumpet,
    praise by strumming soft strings;
Praise him with castanets and dance,
    praise him with banjo and flute;
Praise him with cymbals and a big bass drum,
    praise him with fiddles and mandolin.
Let every living, breathing creature praise God!

What a powerful hymn to end the book of Psalms. The message is so straight forward – we are told to praise God. It tells us to praise:

  • Where? Everywhere
  • Why? Not only for what He has done, but for who He is
  • How? With our voices
  • Who? Everyone

What is the purpose of praise? It vocalizes our compliments to God. Praising God during the trials is something I have written about frequently on this blog. Back in February, I wrote a post about how praise unlocks the the key to what you are believing for. When we thank God, it brings dead stuff to life. We go deeper with the Lord. It leaves no room for fear or darkness. Our attention moves from our own problems and focuses on our blessings from Him. Instead of saying ‘poor me’ it shifts to ‘I am so blessed’.

Instead of living in darkness and focusing on this evil world I feel surrounded in, I am choosing to focus on praising God. He has set me free. Delivered me. Healed me. Snapped all my chains. Crushed all my walls. Gone before me. He stands beside me and I can live victoriously because of what He has already done.

I don’t know what today holds. But, what I do know is even though my natural circumstances don’t seem too praiseworthy lately, I’m pressing forward with thanking Him for everything, including the trials. Even though I am grieving, I will be seeking Him, the light of this world, at the same time.

He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. Psalm 40:2

  • Megan Davis
    Posted at 07:35h, 07 May Reply

    I love Psalm 40. The very nature of Jesus is light, you are never in true darkness. He has NOT left you! He will NOT forsake you! Love you sweet sister!

  • Marianne
    Posted at 08:10h, 07 May Reply

    Thinking of you.

  • Emily
    Posted at 08:13h, 07 May Reply

    Beautifully written friend. Your honestly and heart for truth will impact many. Praying for you this morning.

  • Emily @ EatLoveProcreate
    Posted at 08:54h, 07 May Reply

    Reading that Psalm, it’s almost impossible not to smile. I’m glad you are resolved to lift yourself up and out of that pit!

  • Jojo
    Posted at 10:09h, 07 May Reply

    U are the reason I have renewed my faith through this struggle. I know you will come out of this pit and u will be stronger than ever.

  • Cheryl Smith
    Posted at 13:58h, 07 May Reply

    Wow, Caroline! I can’t believe how God can use a word that was spoken from an entirely different place and season of life and apply it to a completely different situation and have it be equally applicable and edifying to both sets of circumstances! You have NO idea how much I needed this today. God spoke right through you straight to something that has perplexed me so much over the past couple of weeks. Isn’t that awesome? Just like our God!! You know, we just never know when we write a post how God is going to use it to help someone else. There is GOOD that is coming out of your pain, my sweet friend. Sometimes the sweetest fragrance is released by the most harsh and severe crushing. Thank you for minding God and walking in obedience even in the midst of your own grief. His Word never returns to Him void, and you are His messenger to convey it. Love you!!

  • katie
    Posted at 14:06h, 07 May Reply

    “Your attitude is so inspiring, Caroline. You just refuse to let anything keep you down and I admire that so much!! Truly an encouragement. The verse that keeps me hanging on is this: Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning!

    Just a season, friend. This will pass, too. xo

  • Kim Adams Morgan
    Posted at 14:16h, 07 May Reply

    Oh Caroline, I also love the Psalms. They are so real and raw and help me to overcome so much. Thankfully all things will pass, and we gain strength and wisdom from them. With this, our trust and faith in Christ grows. Keep pushing, even if you have to fake it some days. We are all praying for you.

  • Morgan
    Posted at 18:03h, 07 May Reply

    If you are in a pit, we are there with you. If you are weeping we are weeping with you, when it’s a season of celebration we will celebrate with you! You are not alone. Love this, and I (being in a pit myself) will have to listen to that sermon and soak in your sweet sweet words. Thank you for sharing! love this, and love you sweet friend! xox

  • Charity
    Posted at 20:06h, 07 May Reply

    I’m praying for you Caroline. You and your family never left my prayers. I have such reason to celebrate but my heart is so broken for so many others. Death of littles, family devastation, miscarriage it’s all so much. But this word is perfect for it all. Thank you for continuing to be obedient to God by sharing your heart, even when I know it’s hard to. Love you!

  • Mariel Collins
    Posted at 22:04h, 07 May Reply

    I am praying for you and your family. I can’t imagine loosing someone so little and dear to me! I am grateful to Him for keeping you strong in your faith and allowing you to see where you stand. I wiil continue to pray for you and your family.

  • Clara Goode
    Posted at 01:05h, 08 May Reply

    praying for you Caroline. My heart has been so heavy with so many tragic events that I’ve heard of lately. it just makes me pray “come quickly, Lord” more than ever. thank you for sharing your heart and continuing to trust the Lord as he guides you through this. I can’t wait to continue to witness all that he does in and through you! <3!

  • Logan
    Posted at 06:34h, 08 May Reply

    This is a beautifully written post. I read “The Voice” translation’s version of Psalm 23 last night, and loved the way it translated verse 4: “Even in the unending shadows of death’s darkness, I am not overcome by fear. Because You are with me in those dark moments, and near with Your protection and guidance, I am comforted.”

  • Amy
    Posted at 07:18h, 08 May Reply

    So many dark things going on, but I still can’t imagine you ever being unpleasant to be around, Caroline. You are such a light, even on the darkest days. Praying for you always.

  • Jennifer | The Deliberate Mom
    Posted at 09:00h, 08 May Reply

    Oh Caroline, this was so important for me to see. I am still grieving and at times have felt like I’m being swallowed by the darkness. John 16:33 is the perfect scripture to turn to in times like these.

    My grandma was full of song and praise and worship. My mind is overwhelmed by memories of a joyful spirit. I’m certain she had tough times, I know she had tough times, but all I remember is that joyful, happy, singing soul.

    Thank you for sharing. I feel so blessed and appreciative that you shared this on the SHINE Blog Hop.

    Wishing you a blessed day.

  • jennifer prod
    Posted at 17:36h, 08 May Reply

    oh caroline, i wish i could wrap you in a hug, but know you’re in my prayers <3

  • rex
    Posted at 20:06h, 08 May Reply

    Hey Shining Light!
    Good to know that satan has not overcome!
    He tends to go after those who are getting closer to God…
    Nothing evil ever comes from our saviour, may not come from satan, but he rejoices in our sadness if we blame God for the down times in our lives. So glad you are not giving him the satisfaction of blame!!
    You are a joy, as are your friends that enjoy your words as much as I do. God bless you and your husband, who obviously supports and loves you, much as God does! You go girl.

  • Kelli B
    Posted at 20:27h, 08 May Reply

    I truly admire your attitude, Caroline. You are so strong and aren’t afraid to talk about your vulnerability. That is admirable! I love that Psalm. The Psalms are so encouraging to me because they go from complete desperation to praise. Praying for you, friend!

  • Jen
    Posted at 20:33h, 08 May Reply

    Caroline, I love your sweet heart for the Lord. You have such a gift of encouraging and pointing people to the Lord in a eloquent way. I’ve been going through a tough time the last few days, so this post was very timely for me. I’ve also been praising God and thanking Him for His blessings when it’s the last thing I want to do. Slowly, but surely, it’s helping. Psalms 40:2 reminded me of one of my favorite songs, “Jesus, Lover of My Soul / No One” by Coffey Anderson.

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