The first few days were engulfed by heartache, tears and lots of questions. All we had was one phone call regarding Colbys test results. We had no explanations and knew nothing. Thankfully, Colby was positive and reminded me that until we met with a doctor that we had to focus on the positive. I wept and wept some more. We decided to read Psalms together and were able to relate to so many chapters. In chapter 6, David pours out his heart with tears as he is completely honest with God.
My soul is in deep anguish.How long, LORD, how long? Turn, LORD, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love. Among the dead no one proclaims your name. Who praises you from the grave? I am worn out from my groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears.
My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes.
More tears…. and so many thoughts flowing through my mind. So many unanswered questions, but glad that God knows our hearts and listens when we are on our knees weeping out to Him. It was at this point I decided I wasn’t going to let go of God’s promise – no matter how hard the road got. We are holding on to hope that God is bigger than any medical issue. He has good plans for us (Romans 8:28 – 29) and works for our good.