Our Fertility Update

Our Infertility Update

If I were to be real honest with you, I would let you know that I don’t love doing an infertility update. No, no one is making me write this, however, it’s been almost a year since my last infertility update, so I figured it was time and what better time than during National Infertility Awareness Week to share. Just recently, at the beginning of April I celebrated my 5 year anniversary of blogging, which was a very bittersweet milestone for me. Because 5 years of blogging, also means 5 years of infertility and that is a tough pill to swallow. I often wonder how we got here. Not only how we got here, but I wonder how we are still here, too.

Our Fertility Update

There is a reason I don’t like doing these updates and it’s because I hate that I have to share that as far as pregnancy goes, we have gone yet another year with no changes to our situation. God has continued to spoil us with love and peace in the wait and has continued to speak to us over the past year, which has been amazing. But that doesn’t lessen the pain that comes from waiting. It doesn’t lessen the desire to have kids NOW (or let’s be honest, 5 years ago when we really wanted them). It doesn’t lessen that the more time that goes on, the harder it gets. It doesn’t lessen that now more than ever I feel like I don’t belong. It doesn’t lessen that I am tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of asking. Tired of praying. Tired of believing. Just tired.

Our Fertility Update

So my infertility update? It’s another year of not having an update. It’s another year of sharing that we are still hopeful and we are still expectant. It’s another year of sharing that we won’t give up on our dream and desire. It’s another year of believing that our breakthrough is going to happen soon. It’s another year of trusting we are on the correct path, believing God for a miracle, even though the path of adoption or fertility treatments seem like a better road to go down. It’s another year of surrendering our infertility journey to the Lord, admitting that we can do nothing to bring our baby, but he can do everything.

Our Fertility Update

I wish I didn’t have to do an update like this. I wish I was announcing that we were pregnant. But as I have figured out over the years, my wishes don’t always happen. Life doesn’t look like I though it would or how I wanted it. But it doesn’t mean there isn’t still plenty of sweet, even in the bitter. It doesn’t mean God isn’t good, even in the waiting. 

Our Fertility Update

My hope is there won’t be an update like this next year. My hope is that we won’t know what it’s like to wait 6 years to become pregnant. My hope is that someday soon we will be celebrating a miracle. My hope is that at the end of our journey, whether it’s months or years, that we will look back and see how God was in the details of every day, working out the most perfect plan, not only for our good, but more importantly, for his glory.

Our Fertility UpdateThank you to each person who has been on our journey with us. Thank you to those who haven’t tried to fix our situation, but have instead offered love. Thank you to those who have prayed, because we truly believe every prayer matters. And thank you to those who haven’t given up on us, but who have remained steadfast in believing that someday soon we will be parents.
Our Fertility Update
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  • Jessi | LifeAbundant-Blog.com
    Posted at 08:21h, 26 April Reply

    Continuing to pray for the miracle that is sure to come!

  • Stephanie Risinger
    Posted at 08:47h, 26 April Reply

    Thank you for sharing with us even though it’s hard! I’m praying and believing for you. Have you heard my story yet? I know you already have lots of faith, but it may give you an extra boost of hope as my husband and I also chose to forgo fertility treatments.. I’m truly only sharing. I don’t mean this as a way to promote myself. I’ll include a link to my podcast episode where I share my story. You’re doing amazing things!

  • Elise Welch
    Posted at 09:28h, 26 April Reply

    Praying for you! I am in a season of waiting too and it is hard, but I am striving to be content and seek God with all my heart. Thank you for being a wonderful example! I am so excited for what is to come for your family!

  • Trishanna Safken
    Posted at 09:34h, 26 April Reply

    My husband & I waited 6 years before we conceived our miracle baby, so your story really touches my heart. I know there are many who have waited longer, but I understand how waiting for something that long can wear on you! It doesn’t mean that you don’t have faith, just that the emotions that go along with this journey are SO REAL!!! I am continuing to pray for you…

  • Rebecca Jo
    Posted at 09:46h, 26 April Reply

    Yep… this is just another year of you shining God’s goodness in your life… you do that so well… especially in the hard things. Always praying that this is the last year of these updates 😉

  • Allison McClellan
    Posted at 09:47h, 26 April Reply

    Caroline, I’m so sorry that you’re still waiting. You and others have reminded me that there is a bigger, better plan, even though it still hurts to have unanswered prayers and see others get what you desperately want. Don’t stress about your critics. You’re doing what’s best for you now and inspiring others along the way. Keep hoping!!

  • Val Coleman
    Posted at 10:02h, 26 April Reply

    Waiting with you! All things will work together for the good and His Glory! Look at the bright side…would this blog have happened without infertility? So much good has came from this! God has your babies birthday already planned just like He has ours planned out. He wants them here at a specific time for His specific purpose. Sarah wanted her “promised” baby NOW and it ended up being in error, yes God turned it around, but His promises are HIS promises and there is nothing we can do but Trust in His word and His will! Encouraging you to continue my sista in Christ! This world needs our babies so it happening isn’t even a question! It WILL happen! Who else will preach the gospel and help others to be saved by coming into the knowledge of Jesus? When you think of it that way…You have to know…It WILL/HAS TO happen!!! With Love, Val

  • Jen Ruud
    Posted at 11:31h, 26 April Reply

    Praying for you guys!! My husband and I are approaching our 5 year mark in the waiting… definitely not easy and I can relate to everything you just wrote! Just hoping and praying and waiting….
    The power of prayer is amazing and knowing we are all praying for each other helps so much!!

  • Tedi at Running with Infertility
    Posted at 11:33h, 26 April Reply

    Caroline! I felt for so long that we were in the same boat as you. We were told to wait. Then after almost 5+ years we felt the go ahead to move forward with treatment (which ended up failing). I’m not saying you’ll get that same prompting as Chase and I, but that you have a friend who waited patiently too without doing treatments and without moving forward with adoption.

    I am here supporting and praying hard for you and Colby!

  • Kelli {A Deeper Joy}
    Posted at 13:15h, 26 April Reply

    Still praying! And yes! God is so good! I’m constantly amazed by your great attitude, Caroline 🙂 And I LOVE all of those pictures of you and Colby!

  • Suzanne Williams
    Posted at 13:15h, 26 April Reply

    I always think of you and I’m always praying and hoping that your miracle will come. I share your belief that “in due time” it will. Because you both deserve it so so much. I know I don’t comment much anymore, and life can just get overrun with all the “to do’s” and whatnot, but I hope you know how often you are in my thoughts. Much love to you my friend.

  • Sue
    Posted at 14:05h, 26 April Reply

    In everything there is a season sister! My hope is the Lord will grant you the desires of your heart! Keep praying, keep believing! Love you.

  • Nicole
    Posted at 14:19h, 26 April Reply

    Praying every single day for you and Colby, Caroline!

  • Dreaming of Diapers
    Posted at 15:18h, 26 April Reply

    Caroline, you are always in my prayers and I know you and Colby will be amazing parents. It will happen. I know it will and I cannot wait to see you both holding your miracle soon. I am believing with all my heart ?

  • Amanda Goebel
    Posted at 18:46h, 26 April Reply

    Thank you for this post, I have been wanting to do Fertility Friday posts, but it seems almost as if, there’s not much to post. Still waiting. Still praying. I love that you say spoiling us with love. That’s true. Thank you always for your words and your posts.

  • Kaitlyn Milby
    Posted at 20:39h, 26 April Reply

    Thank you so much for sharing through this whole journey. I know it isn’t an easy path to walk. Every time I read one of your posts, I think of my in-laws. They waited for nine years before their first baby was born and another eight for the next miracle baby (my husband)! I am so glad they were patient and listened to God’s plan for their lives because I can’t imagine if they’d just said, “Nevermind! We can do this another way.” Because without the waiting, I wouldn’t have my amazing husband.

  • Emily R
    Posted at 22:41h, 26 April Reply

    I have a sister in law who decided to quit fertility treatments after a few months. Instead she decided to track everything and hope to get pregnant on her own. She adopted a baby…..and after 5 years….she is pregnant.! She swears that the Whole 30 diet helped….I’m not so sure! I wish you the very best! Thank you for sharing your story!

  • Amber Mueller
    Posted at 11:57h, 27 April Reply

    The waiting is so, so hard, but I love how encouraging scripture is all throughout the old and new testament. And just think, God used the story of infertility to point to Jesus Christ our Savior, and we have become heirs to that promise made long ago to Abraham through faith. I also love that scripture shows that it wasn’t by works that we are justified, but by faith in the promises of God. It gives me hope too that there is nothing I can do to earn the gift of children, just like with our salvation in Christ – it’s a free gift. Waiting patiently in hope with you sister. Our God is faithful!

  • Erin
    Posted at 05:01h, 28 April Reply

    if i may ask, do you feel that treatments are sinful or ungodly? i work in reproductive medicine and am an evangelical Christian and believe that God can use the technology we have to build families. We all (my colleagues) know that ultimately He is still in control no matter what we do.

  • Alana Geary
    Posted at 19:35h, 28 April Reply

    Caroline, I think you are amazing and I can’t thank you enough for the ministry you run. Your blog and posts have given me so much hope. I am also 5 years into the infertility journey and through that time lost a lot of hope, It was just easier to deal with every month, less hope, less disappointment. You have demonstrated to me the importance of hope, encouraged me to be expectant, to hand this over to the Lord and trust in him. Your words are wise and honest. My faith has been stretched and grown because of you. Thank you. I hope and pray that your miracle will happen soon.

  • Nichole
    Posted at 19:56h, 01 May Reply

    Your spirit is amazing Caroline!

    In early March of this year I got a BFP after trying for 3.5yrs and being told I’ll need fertility treatment. I got pregnant naturally only to miscarry mid April after discovering I had a blighted ovum. I was two months pregnant. The doctor and I decided that it was best that I allow my body to miscarry without any medical intervention. Oh, boy I had no idea what I was in for…

    Initially, I was devastated that God would open my womb only to have me miscarry. But my faith helped me to realize God knew exactly what He was doing and that my miscarry after struggling so long to get pregnant will be a great testimony to other women when I do go full term.

    God is currently using my trials and tests as a way to encourage other women through my online ministry. Yes, it sucks at times, but much is required from us women working in ministry as I’m sure you know all too well. The road can be brutal, but we must rely on God’s strength as we know to do and Caroline, you are an excellent example of having such strength.

    God will fulfill His promise to me and He WILL fulfill His promise to you and your hubby. I will continue to pray God opens your womb soon for being so faithful and such a blessing to us women.


  • Leah Kennington
    Posted at 23:35h, 29 June Reply

    I am so, so sorry. I stumbled upon your blog and was reading assuming you had reached “the end” of the infertility saga, only to see your update that there is “no update”. I distinctly remember writing a similar blog post when we were in the trenches. It is just awful, hang in there. I’m praying for God’s strength for you and I hope you can be encouraged by Habbakuk 3:17-19

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