Please Don’t Be Afraid of Me
As I have navigated through 4+ years of believing for babies, more often than not I feel like the elephant in the room. I have had the awkward moments at an outing where a pregnancy announcement is made and I can feel everyone glare at me to make sure I am okay. I have had friends who have been over half way through their pregnancy before telling me. I have time after time received the call saying, “I don’t know how to tell you this.”
I hate that other people are uncomfortable around me or hide from me. While I think a lot of friends make these actions to protect me, I am tired of being treated differently or feeling like others are afraid of me. Is it because they don’t know what to say? Or they don’t know how to act? Or maybe they aren’t sure how I will react?
Here is the thing. I don’t bite. I am not going to hurt anyone. I don’t have some contagious disease. I am not dying. If a person gets near me, they won’t all of a sudden have a hard time conceiving. I promise, there is no need to be afraid of me.
I would love to be treated just like every one else. I would loved to not be looked at different. I would love for people to treat their own pregnancies around me the same as they would with their other friends. I would love it if I hadn’t lost so many friends along the way.
I love babies and I love my friends, so I want to be around both without any awkwardness. I love to celebrate new life including newborns and each birthday that follows. I want to see my friends’ children grow up. And when my friends are having a hard day, or their baby is fussy, or they are exhausted and need to talk, I want to be a part of all that too.
I want all these things. I want to share the ups and downs of my life, just as I hope others would want to do with me. Most of all, I don’t want others to be afraid of me. I want to them to love me, encourage me, and support me. And in turn, I hope I can do the same, regardless what stage of life they are in. I hope others can look beyond what I am going through and love me for me. I promise, there is nothing to be afraid of.
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