Vicious Cycles

TMI (Too Much Information) alert. CD (Cycle Day 1) started today. Meaning I’m not pregnant. Accompanied by no sleep, cramps and a headache. Oh the joys.

But, as upset as I was this morning, I’m gently reminded of these truths:

God already knows when we will conceive. He loves us so much that He chose us in him before the creation of the world – Ephesians 1:4. And, He chose us all for His joy. I love that! He knows every minute of our lives. How many more vicious cycles I will have. How many sperm C.J will produce. What my hormone levels are on a a daily basis. He even knows the very hairs of your head are all numbered – Luke 12:7

Ultimately, we are praying for a miracle, the all natural way. When we whole-heatedly seek and cry out to Him, he hears us-whatever we ask-we know that we have what we asked of him – John 5:14-15. 

For, he knows the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future – Jeremiah 29:11. He intends good things for us and although we may suffer through trials, we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose – Romans 8:28.  We are so excited to see these plans unfold.

We have no doubt we will look back on this journey and everything will make complete sense and will blow us away as He will do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us Ephesians 3:20. When we pray one thing, he does 10,000 things to make it happen. Nothing He is doing is considered wasted time as He is sovereign over all delays. It may seem slow in coming, but wait for it; it will certainly take place, and it will not be delayed – Habakkuk 2:3

I know as these cycles keep coming, it’s going to get harder and harder. So thankful that the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles  they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint – Isaiah 40:31. And at this time, even though it’s our desire to have children, For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; …  Ecclesiastes 3:1-22

We are going to rest in these truths as we continue to wait!

  • Amanda Greavu
    Posted at 21:38h, 01 February Reply

    Cycle day 1… boooooooo! So sorry hon.

  • dspence
    Posted at 21:55h, 01 February Reply

    I’m sorry that today is CD1. Again. Ugh.

    You’re absolutely right – God knows. That has been our mantra this week: God knew. Even Little K repeated it on Monday morning when she said, “Momma, did you know that God knows what job you’re going to get?” It’s amazing how kids get it and hold tight to those simple truths, huh?

    God knew today would be CD1. And He knows when you will get that positive test. Praying for you to have peace in the waiting!

  • Becky
    Posted at 02:54h, 02 February Reply

    Ugh, so sorry about CD1. That’s always a hard day. But I’m so proud of you for keeping your head up and your hope in the Lord. He WILL see you through this until His final plan for your family unfolds. I just hope and pray that your wait is coming to and end!

  • Erin
    Posted at 03:26h, 02 February Reply

    Preach. It. Sister. Love you!

  • Aspgriswold
    Posted at 16:36h, 02 February Reply

    I’m sorry hun. This stinks. You’ve got such an amazing faith!!

  • Celeste Rhythm
    Posted at 07:06h, 10 February Reply

    What an amazing post!!

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