26 Aug Desperation: A Beautiful Form of Faith

It is such an honor to have Lauren Bourne from I am Fruitful guest posting for me today. If you don’t already follow Lauren, you should. She is a mom to two kids, but her journey getting there wasn’t easy. She is constantly encouraging my heart with the truth of God’s Word and I love her heart for those still waiting. I am grateful that she also lives in the Dallas area as we have been able to meet twice. I can’t wait to see where our friendship goes and how God continues to use her ministry to bless others. Thank you Lauren for sharing today!

Lauren and I at Pink Impact

Desperation: A Beautiful Form of Faith

I’m actually tearing up as I begin thinking about the desperation I felt while we were in the midst of our “delayed fertility.” It was one of the most difficult struggles I’ve experienced in my life and in my marriage.

The unknown. The what-ifs. The bad reports and negative tests— desperation.

The phone call telling me I lost the baby. The phone call telling me I lost the next one too — more desperation.

The constant, nagging struggle between faith and fear. The sonogram that showed only one heartbeat when there were supposed to be two. The once-a-month “no.” The days spent under the covers. The tears — complete and utter desperation.

There were so many highs and lows in our journey to grow our family, but do you know that almost every high came through God speaking to me! Sometimes through His word or voice. Sometimes through a friend or prophetic word. Sometimes He gave me little signs — things I knew were just for me. But the highs were so often His encouragement. So what could I possibly write for you other than encouragement from the Lord? I considered sharing my full story with you — but I think you’ve already heard enough to know that I’ve been there. I’ve experienced it. All our fertility stories are a little bit different. The desperation though? It’s all the same.
Last night I heard Joel Stockstill say, “Desperation is a beautiful form of faith.” Wow. Read that again. Let it sink in. Try to understand it. How is our desperation a form of faith? Much less a beautiful one?

I believe it’s the desperation for HIM that makes it a beautiful form of faith.

Psalm 126:5 is so encouraging — “Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy.” I looked verses 5-6 up in the Message version, “So those who planted their crops in despair will shout hurrahs at the harvest; So those who went off with heavy hearts will come home laughing, with armloads of blessing.”

I believe this is what the Lord is directing me to share with this amazing In Due Time community — you seekers of truth, you strong women of God, you leaders and faith-builders, you women who are waiting for your time. Be encouraged that even though God doesn’t promise us an easy life, He does offer redemption. Beautiful redemption. And this time of despair, of tears, and sorrow — it’s going to be replaced by armloads of blessing and a season of intense joy. Not just smiley, happy joy. I’m talking — shouting from the rooftops because you can’t even contain it — joy. The kind that other people want a bite of. The kind that radiates God’s goodness. The kind that people can’t help but notice and want in on. The kind that breeds itself. That season of laughter and joy is on it’s way!

It’s okay to be desperate, my friends — if in our desperation we are reaching for our Heavenly Father.

Desperation is a beautiful form of faith.

I have to wrap this up by reminding you that the first thing God said to man was to be fruitful and multiply. If you had any doubt before, that He wants that for us, doubt no more. I always tell my peeps, confess life over your situation, and say, “I am fruitful!”

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