21 Mar Four Year Heavenversary
Today, March 21st, marks 4 years since we said goodbye to the sweetest, cutest, most fun, and lovable two year old nephew of ours. Four years ago on this day, which is also my brother and sister-in-laws anniversary, they had to say goodbye to their firstborn son.
The unthinkable happened to my family back in March of 2014. My 2.5 year old nephew was diagnosed with brain cancer and passed away just 15 days later. Just as anyone who experiences such a tragedy knows, we were left heartbroken.
I can’t believe how quickly four years has gone by and yet things feel as though they just happened yesterday. I can’t describe all the mixed emotions that come when I think about Kai. There is so much happiness that he is in heaven with Jesus. I mean really… that is unfathomable to think about. He is healed. He is cancer-free. He is with the King. I get a little jealous at times when I think of all the pain he has to skip here on earth. But, then there are the emotions of sadness, pain, wonder, and longing. No family should have to say goodbye to such a young family member. No 2 year old should have to face cancer. I am so sad and heartbroken he isn’t here and I long to see him again. I can easily experience all of these within a matter of minutes or hours. I am reminded that each day that passes brings us one day closer to seeing him again and I am so thankful that over the years we have been able to grieve with hope; hope knowing that he is in heaven and hope in the day we are reunited again.
I love this sweet boy and even though I hate the situation it’s important to me that I honor and celebrate the very full life he lived here on earth. Not a day goes by where you aren’t thought about and remembered, sweet boy. Love you and miss you. Love wins. ♥
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