I Have Bad Days Too
Lately I have realized how uncomfortable it makes other people when they ask “How are you doing” and I respond with a response like “not good”. Most of us probably expect when we ask or answer that question, the only response will be “I am fine” or “I am good”.
What does it look like if we are a little more honest and vulnerable with others? The reality is, even though the Lord has provided us with a tremendous amount of strength and joy on this journey, so much so that I can’t even explain it, I have bad days too.
I’m human. Life is hard. The past year has been extremely hard. Is the Lord faithful even in the hard days? Absolutely! But, does that mean I can’t lament and cry out to the Lord? Of course I can!
I often get emails or questions from other bloggers and friends asking, How do you do it – How do you host baby showers? How do you keep friends with other mothers? How do you surround yourself with other children? Well, again! The Lord – The joy of the Lord is my strength.
But, there are days that seems really hard. Often those days come when I’m reminded not only is it another month without pregnancy, but I get welcomed with the cramps and emotions that come with it. I have days where I’m weary. I have days where I’m tired. I have days where I want to throw my hands up in the air and quit.
For those who haven’t met me in person, I don’t ever want to put on this facade that I am some perfect person. I’m anything but that. I have talked briefly about this before. But, even though I make the daily choice to have a positive attitude, to consider it pure joy for our trials, and to make the most of this journey – I sometimes need to lament and cry and that is ok.
I feel like I have to write this post because I choose not to use the blog or my social media accounts to complain or vent. My hope for posting on here, instagram, facebook, etc is to encourage others. Please know that just because we are taking the natural route to expanding our family doesn’t mean that all of a sudden that route makes waiting really easy, because it doesn’t.
It’s ok to have bad days, but it is what we do with our attitude on those bad days that matters – are you going to let it ruin you or will you rise above and continue to seek Christ and allow the situation to refine you to look more like him? I have bad days too, but I don’t let those bad days or the enemy keep me down. While it might take me a few days to snap out of it, I choose to keep believing and seeking Christ despite what is going on around me. The Lord wants us to lament to Him. Don’t hold back.
“So let’s not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit. Right now, therefore, every time we get the chance, let us work for the benefit of all, starting with the people closest to us in the community of faith.”